I am a big “how” person. I am all about theory and understanding the “why” but can get super annoyed if I can’t figure out “how “ to apply it. I guess that is part of being a teacher.
So, “just worship.” (That is my word for the year.) It sounds so mystical and righteous and honorable and…. Unattainable.
“How” do I worship God when the sounds of night are deafening?
“How” do I worship God when my heart feels betrayed?
“How” do I worship God when the broken dreams are like shards stabbing my hands?
“How” do I worship God when questions steal hope?
“How” do I worship God when evil seems to be winning in our world?
He says, “Come up here, and I will show you….” (Rev. 4:1).
Some of my favorite scriptures to meditate, to pray, is Revelation 4 and 5. To be honest, that world seems so much more real to me than the one I am living here on earth. I want to find my place in that story.
Anyone who knows my story knows of a past season when I found myself in the Song of Songs chapter 5 wounded, bruised, and uncovered. I found my war cry in the place of prayer, “Have you seen my Beloved? I am lovesick for Him.”
But this season, I am in a new place. Once again I am at the threshold of my Beloved asking me, “Do you love ME more than these?”(John 21:15) Do you love ME more than the assignments I am giving you? Do you love ME more than your idols? Do you love ME enough to lay your promise on the altar and take the chance that there is no ram in the bush? Do you love ME enough to trust MY plan for your life?”
I want to. I want to love Him that much. I want my whole heart – body, soul, spirit – to love Him.
The hunger, the thirst, the longing for MORE of His glory in my life is a desperate cry to be filled with awe. But “how”? What must I do?
The invitation to see what John saw is the “how.”
How can I not be filled with incredible awe to see what the four living creatures have seen for thousands of years that fill them with uncontrollable outbursts of “Holy, holy, holy is the Lord God Almighty, who was, and is, and is to come” ( Rev. 4:8).
What did John see? I want to see what John saw.
Lord Jesus, open the eyes of my heart to “come up” to where you are to worship. Let me see what John saw.
The One sitting on the throne.
The green rainbow.
The 24 elders.
The lightning and thunder.
The sea of glass.
The golden bowls of incense.
Just eyes set to “behold.”
“Here I am to worship…” just worship. No requests. No pontificating. No words.
Just a heart filled with appreciation for the Beauty for the One.
Just a soul filled with love.