How do I reconcile what I know to be true and what I feel?
How do I resolve the conflict of connecting what I “should believe” and what I “really believe”?
At what point is there a merge between the facts and the perception of the facts?
How do I get past the illogical paradox of what I see to be real in my life between what the King of glory says about me?
God says I am beautiful.
Well, I don’t feel beautiful.
God says I am worthy.
Well, has He forgotten all the awful things I have done?
God says I am acceptable.
Well, I wonder if He lost the checklist?
God says I am loveable.
Well, why don’t I feel that am loved?
Where is the place of convergence?
Feelings ride the waves of circumstances and body cycles. The greater the gap the more intense is the waves. There are a lot of factors that will affect a person’s feelings or emotions – stress, health, sleep, hunger, hormones, personality, their carnal nature, their love tank, and their belief system. Feelings are steered by an internal filtering system of that person’s truth. The skill of mounting the surfboard to ride above the dips is not done by chance but by purpose and having a solid plan for navigation.
You cannot deny a person’s perception is their reality. But what if that reality is based in a twisted belief system? The human brain is wired to predict the future for survival. If something happened in the past and it threatened you or caused you pain, the brain will send warning signals to alert you when it perceives the approach of a similar threat. The key is to program the alarm system to not send false alarms.
A four-inch glass with two inches of water in it can be described in two ways. It is a person’s perception that will dictate the adjectives they will choose. Either will be correct to them but is it Truth?
Our thoughts create an unseen force like a magnet. What we think, what we expect, will be the circumstances that will be drawn to us.
To deny this reality, to expect only the concrete, measurable, observable to be real is to be tossed and pummeled by the waves along the sandy floor of the ocean of life.
I have one thing that works for me – to turn my gaze upwards, to look not on my circumstances or feelings, but to focus on the beauty, the majesty, the glory of God. Does it always change my circumstances? No, but it changes how I feel about them and I begin the journey across the bridge to the other side where the Real TRUTH lives and He is Love. . To learn how to love God with all my heart, mind, soul and strength means letting all the parts of my heart hear His voice. To learn to love others means that I first must learn to love myself. The best way to love is from the whole heart.
Stay tuned for more of my journey where the Holy Spirit is teaching me to connect the parts and eliminate the gaps.